奉主名求...AMEN

Lucas,

Starting when you don’t want your father to tuck you in anymore, mommy has been going to bed with you. You make me stay there until you fall sleep. The funny thing is mommy falls asleep way before you do most of the time. Somehow my snoring, which I like to call it heavy breathing, will calm you down and help you go to sleep. Every night, we will do a short prayer with your little hands together, you will then finish the prayer with an “AMEN”.

Yesterday when I hopped onto the bed, laid there with my arms wrapped around you, you closed your eyes and babbled for a good minute. I had no clue what you were doing until you paused, and said “AMEN”. Then, you opened your eyes and started giggling. Your little eyes gazed at me, earnestly searching for my acceptance. At that moment, I realized this little boy is constantly being influenced by everything I do and my living example can be very powerful or destructive, vice versa.

I know you are only doing this now to please me, but mommy prays that you will continually pray to God because He really wants to be your best friend. Mommy is not perfect, and I will never be. I am not the best role model which you will soon find out. I pray that you will come to know God yourself as you grow. There will be times mommy won’t be around you, and times when you don't want me around, but He will be there for you and guide you through the ups and downs in life.

Praying for your salvation,

Mom